Finding My Way To Love

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Do Dreams Come True

From reading the title of this blog I’m sure you're probably thinking that I am about to talk about following your passion and living your destiny. But I'm not (sorry) what I want to talk about is dreams that you have and wake up thinking OMG that was a crazy ass dream. Like the dream you have that all your teeth fall out of your mouth, and you wake up running to the bath to look in the mirror making sure they all still there. Or the one you have about falling and when you hit the ground you jump up out of your sleep. I want to talk dreams that make absolutely no sense in theory but yet that make sense in other ways.

I have been dreaming about this guy that I barely know. The only thing I know about him is that when I first met him I thought to myself he would totally make a great husband, but back then I was caught up loving the Titan that I didn't pursue him. The other thing is that this guy never really showed interest in me, like he's never been mean to me but he's never been really nice to me, like nice in the way of giving off signs that he likes me. Anyway, these dreams all started about a week ago after I went to this event with my friend Dana. I was really bored at this industry event that I just sat at the bar and watched ESPN. While I was watching the sports channel I had got this strong craving, like when you crave chocolate around that time of the month to see him. I don't know why but I really, really wanted to kiss him and touch him and just be with him. I hadn't been drinking so I just thought it was weird and didn't think anything of it until the next night when I started having dreams about him. I first dreamt that I was sleep in his arms and he was carrying me up some stairs. And then I dreamt that I was singing to a really big crowd and he was watching me in the audience. Then I dreamt we had a huge fight about me moving back to I remember that one because I was crying and I really wanted to move back but I couldn't at that time. Here's what’s crazy this guy doesn’t live in Dallas...well he does and he doesn't (I know, just go with me on this one)

I’ve gotten very obsessed about all these dreams I’m having and even with the burning desire that I got at the industry event. I keep going over every dream and every detail trying to figure if he's "the one" or am I just trippin. What’s worse is I think about him a lot, I mean a lot. It's like this fantasy of mine has taken on a life of its own (lol). Since I barely know him I don't have his number and we don't really hang in the same circles. I told my friend Karen about my mental love connection and of course she encouraged me tap into my inner CSI and find my dream lover. Without hesitation I did (lol). I found out that he's single, his birthday is the day after my dad's and that he doesn't have a facebook page, he has a fan page but not a personal page. I even found an email address for him ,but I haven't emailed him because I don't want to look like a stalker even though I kinda feel like one (lol). On top of that I'm not sure he actually likes me. Like I said before he's never really given me that vibe like he's feelin me. Plus I feel like I'm just way to anxious and if I met him today I'd probably jump his bones and give him my cookies before he could even say hello (lol), hey don't judge me (lol)... it's been a while since I've been touched in the best way (lol).

For the sake of my sanity I have decided to back off. I have to be honest I really, really want to see if these will come true. I'm not really sure how we would run into each other. I'm in Atlanta and he's in Baltimore when he's not in Dallas ( I mean when will I ever go to Balitmore, lol). Thank God I'm a starving artist because if I had some money I think I would fly where he's at and " purposely bump into him (lol). I'm pretty sure I am spending way to much time on this. But it would be so nice to finally be in a relationship with someone that wants me just as much as i want them. They say you can't miss what you've never had but I beg to differ. Each year I pray that this is the year that I can be with the love of my life. I know this may sound petty but I've never really had a valentine on Valentines Day, or roses delivered to me on my birthday. Since I'm about being this faith driven person now I have to believe that if my dream lover is the one that the stars will line up and we will be together living happily ever after(lol).

To my friend who is wondering if crazy dreams come true, I have to tell ya I don’t know (lol). In as much as we very anxious to see them manifest we to be patient and just chill out.

Til next Time
Simply Lola

1 comment:

Mreverything said...

Interesting one.... Hmmm