Finding My Way To Love

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Power Purpose Passion

Power Purpose Passion

As a small child I wondered where I had come from and how did I get here. My mother told me there was place called baby heaven and her and my father prayed for me to come live with them ( boy if they only knew what they know now…they’d still keep me around…lol). As I have gotten older, I have wondered why I am here. Where is my place in this world? My college advisor once told me, as I figure out life and experience the possibilities of what’s to come of me make sure I always do it with Power, Purpose and Passion. Not matter how big or small life may appear always, always give this world my gift with Power, Purpose, and Passion.

My senior year of college two girls from my vocal performance class and I decided to audition for American Idol. Their names were Judith and Jameica (sisters) Jameica was the younger of the two had made it to the top forty the year before. She let us in on exactly what to expect going in for the audition. Being that the audition was just a few blocks down from our dorm, we wanted the whole America Idol experience. Therefore, for two days we slept outside with anticipation. My mother called every five minutes to explain to me how unsafe it was for me to be sleeping outside and worried that I could be kidnapped, and if anything were to happen she wouldn’t able to get to me. There were hundreds of thousands of people from all over the United States waiting for their “Big Break”. For the entire two days people were singing, playing instruments, it was just crazy. It was such a big deal for Judith and Jameica that their parents drove all the way down from Houston Texas to make sure we had food and blankets. By that second day we began to smell like outside (wheeww) so my friend Jennifer came down to were we were posted and guarded our spot while we showered at the dorm. The final hour had come for our audition. As they were calling out numbers, I began to become very nervous and anxious. I remember an old woman at my father’s church telling me that when ever I can't think of anything to say just say the Lords Prayer. Well they called my number and although I practiced Saving All My Love by Whitney Houston for my audition, the only words in my head were the Lords Prayer. When it was my turn to sing, Saving All My Love went right out the door and The Lord’s Pray came out my mouth. I figured that if I was going to sing the Lord’s Prayer, I had better give it all I got. Who would have thought that song would have gotten me to the third

I work very hard as singer. I rehearse my music, do vocal exercises, promote my shows, and exercise. As a singer I have sung in some (momma excuse my language) shity places. One time in college Jennifer traveled with me to a place right outside of Auburn Alabama just so I could sing at a place called “The Club”…no lie the town was so small that there the exact names of places were , “The Church”, The Store, “The Club”. This place had no running water and the microphone would not work so I sung out of a bullhorn….tragic just tragic…lol. Before Gucci Main was the star rapper he is today, I opened up for him at a very hood club in Eastpoint ATL. Til this day I am not sure why the promoter felt like I was a good opener for him. On the other hand, I have had the opportunity to sing at some really great places and open up for some great acts (read my bio @ No matter where, or who is listening, big or small crowd I make sure that I sing with Power Purpose and Passion

In this life, we are not aware of what is to come next. The only way time can be wasted is if time is not used to its fullest potential. No matter what it is that you may do start today by doing it with Power Purpose and Passion. You never will be disappointed if you are giving your best.

Til Next Week

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Definite Imagination

The decisions we make daily determines our end result in life. It’s amazing that the physical eye and our surroundings can justify and create our individual realities. Not having a paying job, car to drive, no husband or children, and living at home with my parents seems to be quite dreadfully for many to analyze. At my age, it appears that with a college education, striking looks and personality (lol), I would have more to show for it. At times, I have reflected on my life and become a bit disturbed. Knowing that this is not what I want or set out to attain, how is it that I have come to this point and most importantly how do I change.

After completing my book “Think and Grow Rich” by Napoleon Hill I talked to my mother about how imagination formed in thoughts eventually transforms into physical reality. I was confused because I have always thought of myself as a singer, so why were my thoughts of singing not my reality. As the conversation carried on my mother asked how definite my imagination is. Are my thoughts of singing clear, or do I doubt what I imagine? I could not answer the question at that very moment but the question stayed with me days after our conversation.

While watching the playoff game Saturday night I sat in silence observing the growth of the Titan. When I first met the Titan he told me that he was at the end of his contract and wasn’t sure exactly what the future held for him. I remember spending the night over his house and having to use the rest room, while washing my hands (cleanliness is next to I noticed a note card taped to his restroom mirror. The note card read “8 sacks”. Being that he was a seventh round pick, not invited to the combine and barely hitting the field this goal may have seemed unattainable to achieve. When the 2007 season started, the starter of his position was injured and would be out for the season. This was a great opportunity for him. The team was not confident in his ability to be successful at his position due to his size. Who would have thought 280 pounds would be considered too small …go figure…lol. The team brought in a bigger defensive player but this player was unable to play for eight games due to unknown reasons. Opportunity knocked and the Titan answered. When the season ended the Titan only had three sacks but more importantly he received a five year contract (yes I still have the news That year positioned him to continue to achieve a written goal. The next year, he got those eight sacks and became a pro bowler.

The answer to my mothers question was simple. As much as I wanted to say yes, I had to be honest with myself and say no. I did not have a clear imagination of my life of as a singer. All this time I had seen myself in the form of other singers and not as Lola Natisa the singer. That night I prayed for a clear imagination of my life as a singer. That morning I woke and I wrote on a note exactly what I wanted. Every morning and night while brushing my teeth, I use my imagination and visualize my written words on my note card. Each day it becomes more of a burning desire. With patience, persistence, commitment and direction from God I can’t go wrong.

This week I encourage you guys to take a note card write your goal. Use a clear imagination daily and see where you are in 2011

Til Next

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

2010 Is Here

Its here, its here, out with old and in with the new. Burned some bridges so I can’t go back. Oh well forgive and forget. What a year 2009 was for me and what will 2010 bring to me. As of December 31, 2009 I have requested to be released from Weekes Entertainment. I believe their intentions were good and that they believed in me but at the same time business is business and I have to think of the betterment of my career. I am sure they will excel to great heights and I will forever appreciate their love and support that they have given me. So now, what is next for the infamous Lola Natisa…lol. I have been asking this question repeatedly for a few days. I am not worried, anxious, or afraid. I have accepted my storm and now I am just preparing for the weather.

Living at home has been very interesting. My mother and father are the funniest couple to see interact. They are so youthful in their older age. My mother has no desire to do anything but tell me what to do (got to work for room and board one way or another) (lol). When something does not work, needs to be connected, or needs cleaning she lets me know and expects it done (mom I’m on it lol). On new years day my mother asked to me put something away in sister’s old bedroom closet. While putting this item away I came across a book titled “Think & Grow Rich” by Napoleon Hill. I could tell from the texture and color of the book that the book was written a while back. I opened the book and noticed it was copy written in 1960, in a time where prosperity was just working a job for 30 years plus and then retiring from that 30 year old plus job. My friend Jennifer and I are huge fans of the new age book “The Secret”. Because of the book copy written date I was curious to know if the philosophies were the same. Although I am only on chapter five, I have discovered a few things:
1. Gandhi was a great man of wealth with out using money.
2. Great men of this country were not all well educated, for example, Thomas Edison only had three months of schooling. Henry Ford only had a sixth grade education.
3. Napoleon Hill has got to be dead, he gave a commencement speak at a Virginia University in 1922 and baccalaureate sermon in the early 1950’s…lol
4. Finally, all wealth starts with a thought or an idea. It is the unsure or lack of self-confidence that keeps me from really progressing in my purpose, goal, and desire.

The book talks about positive emotions bring life to wants and desires. I went to church on Tuesday with my friend Lauren and during praise and worship it hit me that singing, clapping, and dancing were creating a good feeling and producing a positive attitude. As I was giving thanks to God I realized I was bringing life to my hearts desires. As a Christian I put God first I give him thanks in praise, but the age old question is, “what happens when I am not at church”, how do I create that good ole feeling hmmm (thinking) Its simple, a positive attitude is a form of worship. The times I can find the good in the worst situations that shows God that I choose to worship and not complain. Just having a smile on my face or singing to myself develops good emotions not anxious emotions but a steady confident stability in being a child of God. I proclaim, God let your will be done in my life, but the world is mine. Since the world is mine then why ask for a want, I already have it. Marvin Sapp said it best… Praise Him In Advance

Till Next Week